Idol

Okay this blog started as today a friend of mine asked me if I wanna go and see "A Mighty Heart"
I wanted to but couldn't because I have to study for my "superconfusing" macroecon urghhh
I knew I wouldn't survive studying at home so I went to study at the Bellevue public library (a really nice place... it was so crowded today... I couldn't find a big open table so ended up in one of those tiny cubicles)
Nevertheless I came across a Marie Claire magazine with Angelina Jolie on the cover
so i took a break and read the article
I'm always interested in her... the things she does... as a goodwill ambassador, as an actress, as a mom, and of course as the half of Jolie-Pitt (damn!) haha
As i was reading one page to another... I realized how much I admire her more at the end of the article...
i don't usually care about celebrities except who hooks up with whom :P
but something different draws me to Angie... I read lots of article about her and there are things that she said show that even though she's a celeb she's far away from perfect... she admitted her mistakes, her dark past... even she admitted openly she would rather have "lovers" not a boyfriend or a fiance coz she's just not looking for one (but how could she end up with brad?!)... also she hates hugging coz she would feel suffocated... strange but yes I do feel hugging strangers is not my way either... and she does not trust no one not even BP though she couldnt believe he would do anything to hurt her

yes she definitely doesnt scare to speak her mind but she does speak after thinking carefully...
i find she likes to pause when she does her interviews... In Marie Claire she admits she hasnt gotten over her mom's death yet... but she got a good advice from her friend Bob Thornton that you dont have to get over it coz you know the moment you get over it you dont want it to be over... u should just let it be part of you
wow that's a great advice and i think she really takes it to her heart

haha i feel i'm obsessed with AJ now... but i do feel connected to her (even though i dont know her at all... there is a chance she's a totally different person from what I imagine)
but there is this illusion... a strong woman, secure yet can be doubtful (trust no one), passionate but yet seems cold (hate hugging) open-minded but yet stubborn
all this contradictory things inside her that I feel she's showing to us that she's human... just a human entangled in this crazy world and not afraid to present herself just as who she is

i think she's my idol... if there is one person i would die to meet it would be her... no offense i do admire a lot of people but i think a chance to meet, talk or debate (she loves to debate and me too) haha would be a wish to dream for