At the Intersection.....

I'm sure you have experienced this many times in your life... some point or another
When you face with the need to make important decisions.. very important ones
At the intersection... this is the way I want to call it
I look in front of me and there are just too many roads I see... too many routes I can take
Routes which will lead me to different destinations
The problem is I don't know where these routes will take me to or even worse... I don't know where I want to be at the end
If only I know... I say this repeatedly in my mind

But I have to accept the fact... that I don't know... that I'm confused
To put it exactly... I'm torn

Some part of me want to stay here longer.. some part of me want to get back home...
I told my mom a couple of times that I'll come home when I'm ready
It's a good thing that they never put pressure on me... that I have to go home in certain time but through recent conversations with my parents... I feel they want me to... to come home
It is ironic.. I'm thinking now... I guess I'll never know when I'll be ready.. don't you think??

My initial plan was to stay here for at least 2 more years... gaining more experience... test myself... growing... getting through the real world... see what I can achieve on my own
I work for a great company... never thought I could start my career in a better place
even though I have to admit I can get overwhelmed sometimes... workload can be crazy
and I think the hardest part is not having someone there @ work with whom I can really relate to... like talking about personal stuffs... or silly stuffs... I like to get silly under pressure haha
Well that's something else

So yeah it can get lonely sometimes... and then I'll start longing to get back home
Be with my parents... my cousins... friends... I have to admit that sometimes I miss them like crazy
And in the end I'm gonna ask myself again... where I want to be?

So I'm standing here at the intersection... looking at every direction
trying to pierce through what's awaiting for me at the end of each road
while asking myself... what it is I'm looking for?